Happy things right now

Time to make a list of positive things so I can find perspective in the midst of all the negative.  

Here goes.

The happiest thing: I found the one

1.  Health-wise, I feel great.  I had some knee pain that causing me concern, so I bought some arthritis cream, started an Aleve regimen, and went on living my life.  It seems to be resolving, so yay for that.  I am taking all of my meds as I should and am taking care of myself.  I am also sleeping just fine.  

2.  My car is running smoothly and gets great gas mileage.  Additionally, the truck is running well, is almost paid off, and is a safe way for me to travel to Highlands. I am staying on top of all of my obligations when it comes to bills and general upkeep of the house and cars.

3.  Ordering groceries for curbside pick-up is saving me grocery money, not to mention stress from in-person shopping.  Plus, we are eating only healthy foods that are intentional to the menus, i.e. no junk food.  Also, less eating out, which is just fine.

4.  My nails are growing like crazy.  And my hair is so grown out from that disastrous haircut that I now need a trim.  I'm not sure that that is health-related, but I feel like I look better. I am paying attention to how I look in the morning before I leave the house.

5.  My attorney is moving right along with all of the necessary filing.  The RV has not sold yet, but that may be a blessing in disguise as there is the matter of transferring its title. In any case, it isn't in my driveway, making me feel sad.  She is also helping me write my will, and once that is done, I will breathe easier.  I have my witnesses lined up to appear in front of a judge when we go to probate.  Lets get this done.

6.  This week I talked to a counselor in person at work and it felt very cathartic.  It inspired me to contact the EAP for my employer and get the ball rolling to see someone on a regular basis.  

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I'm doing my best to focus on the positives.  This is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life becoming a widow.  Its hard to type it, let alone say it.  I thought it would happen years and years from now, so I was wholly unprepared.  I just have to keep moving forward.