Its coming up on three years since Mark died. I think about how different life is now and how much has stayed the same. Along with change with my house, there have been changes in myself as well. I would love to say I have weathered these changes with grace, but most times I felt like I was just being pulled a long in a raging flood of muck.
One of the best things to happen is that I am focused more on my health than I have ever been. And it shocks me to realize how badly I was taking care of myself before. What was I thinking.
I remember talking to Mark about changes we needed to make and sometimes he was on board, other times, not so much. There were things that had needed to be done at Rustown for years that we didn't get done, simply because all of our resources were going to Highlands. And the same can be said about health changes we needed to make. It kind of makes me feel sad when I think on it.
All that love poured into Highlands and so little into ourselves.
All I can do is move forward with what I need to do in life. Not just for my home, but for myself as well. And I have become the biggest project of all!
