Current goals

 

In no particular order, I thought I would post my current goals. I am making them as practical as I can while still setting my sights.
Here goes:

 No cane this week, with the exception of getting from the car to PT and back.  And maybe if it's raining and I need the mental assist of thinking the cane will magically keep me from falling.  The long term goal is just to forget I even have a cane.

 

The physical therapist suggested I dust off the Wii Fit board and game and use it.  Not a bad idea since we are halfway done with March and much as I like seeing her, it's getting to be time to wrap this up.

Finish decorating the house for Spring. Get rid of that last collection of pinecones I found on top of the kitchen cabinets. 

 

Take the boys to the movies.  There are three movies playing at the dollar theater so we need to decide which ones to see.  We have to work around Scout's work schedule and my PT appointments, but we have time.

Get back into following the home program I set up for myself and the schedule for getting up early.  Also, I probably should email a brief hello to my boss.  And I need to call my mother and see when I can visit her.

Continue with the EFT and self-hypnosis.  Neither one of these things hinder me and I believe they are beneficial.  

All in all, fairly reasonable goals.

What I say when I talk to myself

I think talking to yourself is a valuable tool as something you can do to love and support yourself.  But I have to remember to keep it realistic.

So, I do a validity check on that negative stuff - is it true?  "Maybe you aren't where you want to be today, but you are getting there.  This is hard, but just keep trying.  Give yourself some credit for what you can do and how far you have already come."  Will things be hard sometimes?  Yes, but there's a every possibility things will work out.  So I can keep that in mind while I talk to myself.

Baby Steps

I've talked a lot with my physical therapist and counseling lady about baby steps and how frustrating they are. I'm anxious to make progress, it's just hard to be patient.

 I am not known for being patient. I almost lost control of my shopping cart in Wal-Mart the other day because I said "Let's see how fast I can go". That's not going to work for me at work.  But I really need to keep trying even so.

 

  I do seem to have a lot of fear.

I am trying to keep the faith. Will the Gina that returns in April be able to get things done like before?  Baby steps that get me where I need to go is reasonable.

 I really need to leave the house more often, too.

Hello, it's me!

Whenever I call my mother, I always say "Hi, Mother.  It's just me, Gina"  so she will know exactly who is talking to her...she's 85 and mostly on top of things.  But if you call her and don't not tell her who you are right off the bat, she might have a whole conversation with you thinking you are someone else.  

 My mother and me, 1963
 

But enough of that!

This is a space for me, to talk about whatever I feel the need to talk about.  And lately, that's been a lot of stuff that's not exactly what I want to post on The Cannary Family.

Because not all of it is artsy craftsy.  Or even family related. 

And I need a different outlet. And here it is.

So, hello it's me, Gina.

I am a 54 year old mother of four living in Austin, Texas.  My hubby and I will celebrate 30 years of marriage this October.  I was born in Lubbock, and moved to Galveston when I was 11.  My parents were serial parents; by the time I came around, my mother had been married three times, my father twice.  They had 10 kids between them, with another 3 to follow after me.

A lot of that has to do with a lot of me, so I guess it's relevant.

You learn a lot from your parents about what to do.  It also follows that you learn what NOT to do.

This is my forum, trying to make sense of life.  Not getting bogged down by negativity from the past, but acknowledging it at the same time. It's my goal to be real.