I feel like the whole purging and organizing things has been going on at my house for the entirety of the 2 yrs, 9 mos and 3 days that Mark has been gone. It couldn't begin before that because he was resistant to the idea of paring down our things in order to move to the next step. I know that to some it may seem as though I am just willy-nilly throwing stuff out without stopping to evaluate it's worth. For Grayson, he will see the pile of things I am getting rid of and look through them saying this might be worth something or you should keep this, you might want it someday. But I feel certain that I am on the right path for me, managing my possessions and responsibilities. After all, I am not operating a storage unit over here. And a lot of these things have no family history for me.
Some of them may have value to someone. But the value of an object is subjective only. For each thing I think: Can I use it? Does it have sentiment for me? If not, is it going to be worth it to store and maintain and remember where it is? I have no wish to keep obsolete items from the past that have no use in the present. Getting my home in order makes me feel more in control of the space I am now 100% responsible for. It gives me peaceful and calm feelings to see order instead of chaos. And managing my home and possessions helps me to focus on other things in life which are not even necessarily things. So by extension, it helps me manage my grief as well.
I think I am on the right track, and I have really gotten so much done. But since we are about to roll into summer, I will wrap up any organizing projects and move on to some personal and creative pursuits for awhile.
Stayed tuned, though, because you haven't see the last of my garage!
