I want it back

There are so many things that I feel like I have lost - some of them temporary, so many more permanent, and I want them back.  My craft room, my clean house not full of people always coming and going, my hair, my general day-to-day health without pain, loving my job, a happy husband...I think my list could go on for quite some length.

When I was doing the only two crafts I made over the Christmas season, I came across this jar in the bottom of my supplies tote. {Side note:  I don't want to have to store all of my sewing and craft stuff.  I never see any of it and that makes it hard to get crafty when I have the time.}  This is a decorated Ball jar that Chloe made up for me when she was in Brownies.  I think it originally had cookies in it, but now it is home to buttons.  I guess what I really want back most of all is some joy in life.  I don't feel much joy right now.  I'm not sure where that is coming from exactly, but I will blame the holidays since there is so much stress involved with them.  Deadlines for things, the cost of things, the buying/wrapping/storing/cleaning/cooking/working/missing out on time at home...it's doing a number on me.  I was ready for the holidays to end, and I think that for me that will be complete when we get further along in January.  I want to have the joy of the holiday season back because it used to be so much more fun.  But for now I want the calm back.   No more nasty surprises at work, either. I want to look forward to this year, knowing there are good things ahead.  I want some optimism back.