This is a thought-provoking question for me. I feel like I haven't done any real relaxing in about 5 years. So, I decided to make one day per week an "empty" day, where I can focus solely on myself (not chores, not projects, not a to-do list, no appointments) If I want to just sit on my couch and stare at a wall, so be it. However, I feel like I will read or nap, sit outside on the deck, maybe go thrifting, do whatever. If I get behind in my house plans, then that will have to be OK. But the reality is, I already do too much, and I have for years. I have always filled my days up with productivity, like I somehow had to justify being at home while Mark was at work. Never mind that I also had a job and was a full-time mom of four. My needs were always last, and free time was never free. I am sure that's what's behind all the stress I feel at home now. I am filling my days with motion and it's a hard habit to break. Maybe I am tiring myself out on purpose. I am being productive - but at what cost to me? Figuring out life now with a completely empty nest has been a challenge. Time to pencil in some empty time.

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