I told someone that I had joined a wine club and the response was "don't ruin your liver", and "just don't be a drunk". Mark would've called this "pissing in your cornflakes".
So....Brigid and I will teleport?
It goes without saying that I am not on a mission to do either.
But the issue here is having people in my life who bring a slant to my endeavors to live a varied and interesting life, full of new people and places. I am a widow who is finding her way in this world as a single person for the first time in 39 years. Let me live!
And not to justify, but the addition of the wine club satisfies a longing in me I didn't know I had. Not just a reclaiming of visiting wineries and relaxing on a day off outside of my normal schedule, but a place to decompress and unwind doing absolutely nothing at all if I wish. It was something I loved to do with Mark, but now I will make it my own.
I probably need to share far less with others, in general. Vulnerability can have an upside, but also drawbacks. It is OK to forge ahead with what brings me happiness and joy, regardless of what anyone else prefers. Its Ok to make a life that is separate and unique to me as I figure out who I am and what makes me jazzed about the day.
And its 100% OK to drive out to the country, put your feet up, and stare off into the distance or journal, with a glass of wine in your hand.
Yeah, thats nothing the vibe you need in your life. Wine clubs are great. I'm thinking of starting up again with the one my husband and I had been in for years, but the meetup times got bumped earlier and his Friday schedule had an hour tacked on to end time. I'm on pause for a few things due to dog needs, but good for you creating new experiences for you.
ReplyDeleteI'm probably not even going to get to attend the pick-up parties at this one, and I'm Ok with that. Mark and I had a lot of fun attending those at various wineries, but they are almost exclusively group or couple events. I just want a place to debrief from life, you know?
DeleteI have learned lately, my friend, that it is totally ok to protect your peace and if that means avoiding toxic people who make you feel less than happy, so be it! I have done it, and I feel so free!
ReplyDeleteOh I definitely need to revisit my boundaries.
DeleteOh, I know the kind only too well and since there were some in my own family, it could be hard to avoid it.
ReplyDeleteI hope you enjoy your wine club.
Yes, very hard when they are family members!
DeleteMy mother was a teetotaler her entire life, and died of cirrhosis of the liver. My sister-in-law's mother never smoked, and died of lung cancer. I say enjoy life, because our end will come no matter what. For crying out loud, Debbie Downers are such an unpleasant pain!
ReplyDeleteAs for pissing on cornflakes, if I can find a picture, I will be posting it on my blog. :)
Mark used to say just do the thing -you could get hit by a bus tomorrow.
DeleteYes, at this point in my life I try to stay away from negative people. It's always been my thought, though, that people who criticize your choices are a little bit envious for some reason.
ReplyDeleteSadly I believe that is true, in this instance. Its never pleasant to be on the receiving end of envy.
DeleteSounds like you are well on your way to enjoying life! Hmmm...maybe I should join a wine club. Well, maybe I will just go for the cheese. I am not a wine person but I do like making friends. Have fun!
ReplyDeleteWineries are definitely Friend Vibe!
DeleteEnjoy socializing.
ReplyDeleteThere are several winery and Bourbon trails around where I live. Maybe you can visit KY some day.
One of my work besties is from Lexington. And from everything I see about Kentucky, it is beautiful!
DeleteI get it, 100%. I've recently "weeded the garden" as my one friend puts it, and it feels much better. Enjoy your wine club!
ReplyDeleteYes, ma'am, I totally will! {for both (: }
DeleteI ban negative people, don't have the energy for those. Nice to meet you and your blog via Marsha!
ReplyDeleteIts pretty hard when they are family - but I am going to pull back, no matter what their intentions were.
DeleteI can totally relate to this post. I am like Nancy, I walk away from the Negative Nellies at the first sign of their negativity. I have no patience for it and life is way too short to have to listen to that. I hope you are able to ignore this person and slowly "weed them out".
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Life is definitely too short for that nonsense!
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