A photo I took the week after Christmas as I sat on my patio at home. Looks bleak, doesn't it?
I actually didn't feel bleak when I took this photo, but in hindsight it looks ominous...
Well.
I managed to make a mess, both literally and figuratively. First by not bleeding the pipes properly at Highlands, fixing that one that was cracked, then wrapping the whole thing back up with insulation before the latest freeze. And second, by panicking when I discovered the geyser flooding the top of the hill, draining my well and working my pump to exhaustion, then calling Chloe immediately.
In my defense, it was very stressful. And I just reacted. And she always answers her phone and gives me good advice.
But it caused her to panic as well, ruined her day, and made her feel angry.
And for that, most of all, I am regretful.
Things for me to keep in mind:
*I wasn't the only one who lost someone
*my kids are adults, but they aren't my peers
*I can still be their Mom
*I can handle emergencies with a calm head on my own.
All I can can do is say that I'm sorry, and promise to never let that happen again, and leave her be.
No one ever tells you how hard it is to parent adults.
Parenting adult children is hard...give yourself some grace, that relationship isn't always an easy one to navigate, especially in your current circumstances.
ReplyDeleteIt's always a guessing game, isn't it? As for your comment you left on my Photo Card post, I actually got a lot of greeting cards this year, but sent very few. I think most of the young ones send photo cards, and i enjoy receiving those so much! Snail mail is the best!
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